to all of you

i think i've never really ever posted anything from my heart or sharing my thoughts in this smileys blog and i thought its time to do so. seriously after yesterday, i realised i actually like o7s11 a lot and i love smileys. tho' ive been saying i think our class seems to be bonded but actually we're not, but ytd during ms lee's farewell in class; it suddenly became so apparent that each of us in s11 made the class to be who we are.

smileys being always cheerful and entertaining with nat and me, cry being so 38, jazz n pris still as quiet but sometimes jus out of the blue they say sth unexpectedly, elecia always taking care and yiharn being the daxiaojie (a very kind one);

moodys with the guys always so hysterically funny, tho' ws and cs might be outcasted at times, but i thought they still do bond w the rest, it's a kind of chemistry i guess. joshua always not coming to sch but we always rmb him for his craziness, andrew being so 'bossy' but always lead and direct us, linzhong the hao hao xian sheng, and eugene the mr smart;

sexy darlings: shirley is always comical, si en the very very clever one also, justine the xiaohaizi and liting the cheerful girl who shouts and screams (in the funny way);

and lastly the muggers (can we dun call them this?) yuhui is really nice (aft doing pw for so long w her), jessie whom i've known for years, chengzhu who is leaving.... minyi who is so hardworking, zhihui who is the smartest person in s11 i guess, charlene the responsible gp rep, esther and farharna whom jus joined us not long ago...

without any one of them, it would have been a great change i guess and i cant appreciate more..

with the results out on tuesday, more or less our class is going to change, and it's never going to be the same again. actually i had just finished reading manda (my frd in pigs) 's blog and felt so much that i think i have to blog. i really don't know how to say and express my thanks to each and every smileys. i know not everyone had done well but i do pray hard and hope that each and every smiley gets promoted. i don't know if it will ever happen, but deep down in my heart i really doubt so. saying this is not demoralising any of you but really saying wat i feel. i'm too, very sad if it's never going to happen, because smileys is never going to be complete ever again with any of you gone. really. i don't want to spent my j2 with any of the colours missing in my life. i had always thought that im very close w my sec sch friends (pigs and rest), then it suddenly occured to my that it's never going to be the same again if anyone of u is going to be missing from my life next yr. it's really never the same again. each of u is special and significant in ur own way; regardless we're close or not. to be very truthful, i am really not close w all of u. i don't know how do you guys define close, but as wat we are, i think we are just a bunch of better-than-the-rest friends, hanging out together. and within the group, some are closer and some are not. then, i realised no matter how close am i to u, you've really impacted and change me. if you're not here anymore next year, im going to miss you a lot. a hell lot.

jazzrel: it's always been you who's emo. but i've always thought that you're a strong girl. tho u always emo but i think that you'll be fine by urself. am i wrong to say so? i don't know. but leaving you alone that day in class aft we get our results was never sth i wanted to do. tho' you wanted to spent sometime alone but please rmb that we're always here for you. don't be afraid to voice out what you want to say because we're always going to be the listening ears. be it sadness or anger, it is really really ok to share. thank you for being the orange smiley.

priscilla: frankly, i didn't know u quite well in scap. and when we started forming smileys i sort of didn't really like you. but you've really change my perspective of you. i still rmb ho wu taught my math in hall when i thought im going to die out of it. math sux like dno what. but u were there and i vividly remember it was from that day onwards that my opinion towards u slowly changed. im really sorry to have didn't really like u at the starting but let me reassure that i think you're one of the nicest girl i've ever met, seriously. these days we're getting closer, tho' still not very close, but im so glad. im thankful that i've realised who u really are and that i've known you. thank you for being the yellow smiley.

ruoying: tho' u've always been bullying and taking advantage and being sarcastic to me, but seriously you're the one in smileys i think i cannot live without. having you in smileys is one of the best things that can ever happen seriously. without you i think i would have liked smileys lesser by a lot (tho all the other smileys matters a lot too). you're somewhat funny and crazy tho' ure always inexplicably moody in the mornings (accroding to you it's cuz havent wake up). i simply love the times we gossiped and being crazy and maybe even the times we quarrelled. it's been a pleasure and certainly something i sincerely thank to have known you. thank you for being the green smiley.

natalie: eh nat, i seriously don't want to type anything for you. simple because thru'out these years i've been writting dunno how many letters and such things to you. grrr. haha! but really, love you (: (don't kill me for the short msg =p) thanks you for being the blue smiley & being liubao. =)

elecia: finally pw is ending aft next week's OP. tho' OP is really sth i don't look forward to. all these meetings in jurong lib had been not really interesting but w/o u in the meeting, i think i would have died from ws's 'wrath'. tho' you're usually quiet, but i know u still do share the laughters we had when sth funny happened. it's been a great year with you and i am glad that i have u in my pw team. cuz' u always put in the effort to do the 'chores' that the rest of us hated so much. recently, you've been sick and i do hope that you'll get well soon. take good care of urself yea? thank you for being the indigo smiley.

yiharn: you're really very innocent and gullible until i don't know wat to say. having you in smileys is definitely a pleasure and no others would have replaced you. now to think of it, your bladder really have probs lah (as well as cry and elecia =p), u all always go to the toilet until i think we can name u 3 the toilet gang! but really, i appreciate all that you've done for us. the uplaoding of photos, bringing cameras, lending ur hse out (tho' i wasnt there), burning cds etc etc etc. it would have been so different if you weren't here. i can now still 'see' how u always wanted to fall aslp in chinese class lol. i think it's cuz the history of china dun really interest you yea? then you and nat would always want to lie on table (ok, maybe sometimes i do too) thank you for being the purple smiley.

and to all of you, regardless how close we had been, we are, we will be; we've been through this tough year together. i really hope that all of us will get promoted together; smileys is never going to bve complete with any of the colours missing. how can the world be as beautiful as it is if the rainbow is never going to be complete? next year, it will never be the same again for s11. but because of the presence of all of you, i've learnt to appreciate. you guys are people who will never be replaced, cuz each of you is special as you are.

thank you for being smileys.

ciauer - the red smiley